Saturday, January 14, 2012

Reflections

I'm still in that funk that I mentioned in November.  That's a long time to be in a funk.  And if I'm really honest with myself the funk started in March as anger at the world with the unexpected death of my beloved cat Wally.  I still sometimes think about how different and how happy my life would be if Wally had not died.  But it is what it is (even though it sucks) and I have to move forward from this current life as my starting point.

So I look at my life and to help me get started I'm breaking things down to 2 lists - things I like and the type of person I want to me.  Hopefully there will be a great overlap in these lists.  The idea of this exercise is to help me see the path I have to take to get to be the person I want to be.

Things I like - random list in no particular or or importance
  • Hiking
  • Reading a book - I find I like myself better when I have a good book to read as I'm going to bed - weird but its a reality
  • Sunshine /sunlight
  • Efficiency - I might be like Dr Spock on Star Trek - part Human-part Vulcan.  Logic is very easy for me and inefficiency and lack of logic are one of my pet peeves
  • Maintenance and projects - I'm very handy and I like to fix things
  • Schedules - I do much better with having schedules and following them, then when I just 'wing it'
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I want to be a person that......
  • hikes multiple times a week - can be short hikes at local parks or longer hikes at the state parks
  • is fit and can
    • easily run a 10 min mile
    • complete a 10K (don't expect this to be my 'normal' distance, but I want to be able to do this without requiring herculean efforts on my part)
    • reach my hands around my back (flexibility - I've lost this ability - could easily reach when I was doing yoga regularly in Chicago)
    • try multiple sports and activities with friends (i.e., not just biking, running, and hiking - but also does canoeing, rafting, zip lining, rope course, etc - I want to be the type of person that is physically able and not scared to try new activities)
  • smiles most of the time
  • is fashionable in my attire - with my own causal, comfortable, athletic style
  • is well prepared for retirement
  • is able to live on much less than I make now (job situation is somewhat tentative and its very unlikely I can make as much as I do at IBM at another job)
  • leads volunteer groups - I do like being the leader (it helps reduce the inefficiencies that drive me crazy)
    • BLS finish area volunteers for Lakefront Marathon
    • St Dom's A&E committee
  • has friends that go along with me on vacations, hikes, restaurant dinners, etc
    • I need to expand my group of friends to have more active friends that want to do more new and different types of activities
  • lives in an uncluttered world - I like to have things in their place and a place for everything
  • has what I need and not too much else! (right now I have more than I need, I want to use up what I have before purchasing more, and donate or sell what I no longer use/want)
  • is a good dog owner.  If Zeus has taught me anything it's that I'm a cat person!  But I have Zeus and I do love him - he is a great puppy - and I expect to have him for the next 10 to 15 years so I need to be a good dog owner.
    • I want Zeus to be well behaved - no jumping on people, no barking that is unwarranted (I'm glad to have him bark at the door and unknown sounds, etc but I don't him to bark at people he knows or to bark out on walks, etc)
    • I want to love and appreciate Zeus and make sure he knows it.  Some of my biggest relief with Wally's passing was that I knew I loved him, and I knew he loved me, and I knew he knew I loved him - I want the same for Zeus.

I expect I will come back to this post and update it, but I'm satisfied it is a good starting point.  Next step is to work on the How Do I Get There From Here post.   I like I pointed out, I like schedules and if I can put together a plan and schedule for these goals then I have a much better chance of getting there!