39 and Holding

I played with my Wii Fit today.  First time in a long time - probably over a year, but I didn't watch the number of days between last workout too closely - I can tell you the it was 300+ days.  The nice thing is I was 13 pounds down from the last time I played it, and my wii fit age is 39 - 9 years younger that I am.  For

being obese that fit age is somewhat surprising.  And it's one of my problems - I am fit. So that makes me think my extra pounds are not that big a deal.  And they really are - I have to get my head around that fact.  I think once I truly come to terms and accept that - then I'll be unstoppable at losing the weight.  But I do continue to struggle with accepting that because I know I am overweight at the same time I know I am more physically fit, stronger, and more capable that many of my thinner friends.

Going back a bit, one of my returning volunteers (at the marathon) had lost 30 pounds since last year's marathon.   She did it by following one of the PX90-Guy's program.  I think it may have been Beach Bodies but I'm not sure which of their programs she used.   She is now working for that company and leading on-line support groups.     She sent me a message offering to give me more details for her next session coming up on November 4th.

I thought about it for a good while, but it seams like its another case of me chasing the next thing.  I know what to do.  I already have enough equipment, DVDs and tapes.  My problem is not knowledge, or equipment, or even time.  My problem is staying committed and following through.

So today for the first time in a long time, I pulled out the wii and ran the wii island - twice! Set a new goal to get me back to 'onederland' in two months (in time for Christmas).  The goal sounds small - only losing a few pounds -- in reality, it's not only losing those 6 pounds but also keeping off any new weight which tends to creep up this time of year with Halloween, Thanksgiving, and Christmas all having treats and over indulgences.

The current plan - do the wii 4 days a week.   I'll rotate between the wii Fit, wii Active, wii Sports, and My Coach.  If things are going well - ie, I'm using it regularly and seeing results, then I'll reward myself with a new game or two.  Not necessarily purchasing new games - instead I'll look to borrow from family or friends, at the library - although my local doesn't carry video games and the library system doesn't allow them to be reserved so I'll have visit one of the others (Muskego, Delafield, and Sussex-Lisbon seam to have the most), or I'll buy from a 2nd hand store (half price books, game stop, etc).

I have found that small changes and commitments lead to bigger changes - it's the spiral affect, do something good and it leads to more good choices.    Wish me luck in making this small change and having it lead to bigger things!

3 Parts to 2 Parts

I'm torn on what to do.  The Indigo Girls are coming to Milwaukee and playing with the Milwaukee Symphony.  Part of me would love to go to that concert.  But another part of me actually really, really dislikes live performances - they change the words, timing, etc and I usually don't like it near as much as I like their recordings.   Weird, I know.  And there is a bonus part of me that wants to be frugal and not go if I'm not sure I'd like the live performance - why waste the money when I could make my own concert of my favorites of theirs from recordings I already own.

I had been planning on going to this concert with a friend - but that friend has been getting worse and worse about following through with commitments.   As the picture says - they've been treating me and others like options - and if something better comes along she changes plans and cancels.   She's done it the last two years for the Marathon.  She's doing it now for this concert.  And so many other events.  It's become too much of a pattern and its causing a few of us to laugh and talk about her behind her back.  I've tried to talk directly to her about this - but she blew me off. 

Part of me wants to go to the concern without her - I hate that her lack of commitment is keeping me from doing something I want to do.   I tried to get someone else to go, but she's not really an Indigo Girls fan and while she would go to support me, she doesn't really want to go and I don't want her to go under those circumstances.  

I could go by myself and I'm mainly ok with that.  In fact there is a part of me that really likes that idea - I used to do more by myself and I think its a good trait and skill to have the confidence to go alone.   But the theater is assigned seats and the web page keeps putting me in the middle of the row - it selects the 'best available' seat.  While that may very well be a better seat but I'd still prefer to seat on an aisle if I'm going alone.   And preferably with the row to myself.

So I'm up to 5 parts of me - part 1 wants to go because I like the Indigo Girls music, part 2 doesn't want to go because I don't like all the changes artist tend do when live,  part 3 doesn't want to spend the money (really an offshoot of part 2);  part 4 wants to go to get back at Nancy, part 5 wants to go because its good to exercise and strengthen those 'confidence when alone' muscles-- I may be Sybil with so many points of view?!?! LOL.

The math says I should go - 3 parts to 2 parts.   I'll keep you posted on whatever I end up doing.